that’s right, this Mama wants her body back, and now !
After having my son I was back into shape in 3months, I didn’t gain a lot with him so I didn’t have much to work on.. the parks became my best friend and Tigger was a great child I could do bits at home and he was calm and happy watching tv for 10minutes.
This time it is different, we have to take into account a lot of different things..
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my physical health issues.
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I got bigger with Elmo.
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Time Spare (with two children around it’s kinda gone)
I miss my pre-baby body, I am fed up of the pain my body is in, and its just a vicious circle. It’s cruel and it has affected me now emotionally. For the past week I have had swollen ankles, knees and wrists.. my back has almost made me fall when I picked up my boy.
This has made me feel shit, not just I will be better after a good night sleep shit, I mean I have hit the walls (not literally) but mentally shit! and I fill like I can’t come back up… I worry how this effects my babies, I feel bad for them. This morning I felt terrible I shouted at my son, and I don’t know why I shouted.
I love my children, and I want to do everything to make them happy… but at the moment I feel I can not achieve this, I am not happy, I have hit my lowest point and I am scared to tell anyone. So here today, I write how I truely am, something I haven’t wrote on twitter, something only me and my aunt know.
I am scared.
